The end is near!

Well each day we are getting closer to the end of the month and moveing into the new house! We got the garage cleaned out and packed up this weekend so thats nice, today I need to get the spare room packed up, parts of Rileys room cleaned up, and then my bathroom sorted and packed up. Then we will just have our clothing, beds, and kitchen stuff to move. So we still have a lot to do lol. I threw out a bunch of junk stuff though and then took another truckfull to Goodwill so that made me feel better. I think I will have one more car load of stuff to go to the Goodwill once I am done but at least the new house wont have a ton of crazy clutter in it.
We still have not heard anything back on the house, but all we are waiting for is the word from the VA inspector that he is fine with the work that was done and the house passes, and then the loan documents. I just wish it would hurry up! I friggin hate staying here in limbo! Our agent said she thinks we will be able to move the second week of May no problem. If it takes longer then she is going to ask for early occupancy but hopefully it all goes as planned and we can just move in.
There is so many things we need to purchase an buy for the new house as well. We need to buy a few more fence panels so the fence is complete, we need to get dressers for all of us so we have room for our clothes, we need to buy new appliances so we can actually use our kitchen...AHHGGGG to much to think about!
Oh and I almost forgot! Today I am officially 12 weeks pregnant! Everything seems fine, though I really wont know until I get to the dr. again and I have no idea when that will be since I have to wait till I get to Bremerton and get set up. I dont want to see 3 different dr.'s so I will just wait until I get set up with my regular OB.
Ok well I think I am going to get off the computer for awhile. I have some stuff to get done here and then I need to go out an about on some errands. I will try my best to keep you posted on everything :o)

April

I know I have promised to keep up on this blog but so much has been going on here I really have not had the time. I also didnt want to write to much about the baby in case something happened, it just felt like bad ju ju to talk about it yet. Now that I am almost 12 weeks and I have already seen the heart beat I think we are ok.

Soooooo......where to start???

I guess with the beginning of the month. I am not officially a SAHM or Stay At Home Mom in case you missed it :o) Work got to be to much for me with the impending move and the baby so I left the first of the month. I was really sick of working as well, my boss was really being rotten as well so it was time for me to go. I have been a bit bored since being off, but this pregnancy has really been different and I have had lots of nausea which makes my day not so wonderful. It has been nice being able to take naps when I need to.

The middle of the month brought our pre-approval letter for our own home, which we have worked sooo hard to get! We were so excited we went house hunting right away! We had been looking online as well for the last 3 months in hopes that by move time we would have our approval so we knew what we wanted to look at. We went and looked at 6 houses and all of them we thought we would really like and they all had something not right with them that we didnt want to deal with at all, lucky for us our agent had gotten a new listing that morning which was the first to last house we went to and we fell in love with it immediately. We put an offer on it that night and that started our journey towards first time home owners status :o)

It is now the end of the month and the home purchase is well underway and we are expecting to move in the second week in May. We have some small remodeling projects to do in the house but I am very excited to do them and make this house our home.
I am also almost out of my first trimester of pregnancy. I only have a few days left and I am very excited to be done with it and in a "safe zone" so to speak. We have had a couple of scares with this pregnancy and I am ready to not have to worry anymore. We still have not told our families about the baby but I plan to soon. I ordered a photo mouse pad for mom with a picture of Riley holding the ultrasound picture that I plan to send to mom as soon as I get it. I know she will be happy, well everyone will be happy.

Well I guess that is enough for right now, I will try and update this on a regular weekly basis at the very least but I cannot promise anything since I dont know how busy I will be in the next couple of weeks with packing or the new house.

March

Well since I have been absent a month I will catch you up on everything that has been happening....

First of all we had our wedding. It was a very nice ceremony and we had a great time. I will post some photos as well. It went by really fast and shortly after we got home we found out we had orders! So we have to report to Bangor Sub Base in Bremerton! Thank God!! I dont know what I would have done if we had gotten anywhere else... So things have been very crazy around here since we got that news. We have been working very hard to get our credit score where it should be so we can buy a house up there and we are very close to accoplishing that. We just need to find a place we like now.... I cant wait to move up there! It will be so nice to finally start our own lives!
I think I am even more excited about all of our bills being paid off and me not having to go back to work! I cant wait to stop working. Since I told my boss I was going to be leaving they have found something stupid to do to me every day. Last week they only paid me for 1 week even though I faxed my timecard to my boss AND called her to double check. Then they called me saying I should use periods instead of forward slashed when I input dates...just lame crap like that...Oh well, I will be done in a month and then I wont have to worry about it anymore.
This month is when all the fun started though, well Saturday actually..... WE ARE PREGNANT AGAIN!! Finally!!! It has been a very long 6 months of trying but we are finally here and soooo happy! I thought I would be a worried mess once I found out but I actually feel pretty good. In fact I decided to wait until we get to the Bangor before going ot the dr. They dont usually get you a dr. apt until 8 weeks anyways, and I dont want to start with a dr. here and then have to switch again in a few weeks. Besides I dont want to go in and have them poking around up there with anything, I think that could be worse for me....
I feel much better all the way around this time. My ta ta's have been hurting for the last 2 weeks, I have been pretty naseated as well but not to the point of throwing up thank goodness! I also have had terribly itchy skin and had to pee every 5 min. I thought for sure I was pregnant but I tested every day for the last 2 weeks and they all said Neg. I just happen to see an old test that fell out of the trash and it had two lines, so I tested again and it was positive! We are just so happy! Anyways, I am due November 8th, mom's birthday! So I am 5 weeks right now. We are not telling any of the family, we are going to wait till I am 12 weeks at least. That way if anything happens we dont have to deal with telling everyone again. Last time was to painfull...
Anyways, I should get off here, I am starting to feel tired and I want to take a nap. I will keep this updated from now on.. I will be very bored once I am not working....

January

Well so far this month has been pretty busy. With all of the wedding planning it seems like there is still so much to do. I also turn 27 in 5 days! I am actually freaking out about it a little. I am all that much closer to 30 and I really have no accomplished much....Oh well, I refuse to dwell on that :o) Riley is 10 days away from her 4th birthday as well. I am REALLY freaking out about that! It doesnt seem possible that I have a 4 year old daughter. Hopefully the stork will be kind to us this year and we will have a new baby in time for next year :o)

Riley is sick right now, I have had to stay home from work the last couple of days. I wish I was happy about it, but sadly I am not...I wish I could have worked, we need the money right now. To much crap to pay for...
I am just hoping she gets better, she has had a super high fever for two days, and terrible congestion and coughing. I have been worried sick about her....She seems to feel better during the day and then get ill at night. She is fine so far tonight, but we will see how it goes.

Well so much for the update, I am going to run. I need to work on my tan and the neighbor wants to go with, so I will write more later!

Feeling Overwhelmed?

Ya, me too! I keep trying to get caught up on my house work, work work, and everything else that goes along with daily life after the holidays. I just cant seem to juggle everything throw my way lately. Today things just all came at me at once. I was off work by noon but I got home and saw the 8 full loads of laundry that needed to be washed, dried, folded, and then put away. It just reminded me that even though the last few days I have been off work early, and I have came home and done daily chores around the house I have barely made a dent in the work. It frustrates me to no end! Mostly because it seems I am the only one who is doing the work. I know Andy has helped me a little but it just makes me feel like he isnt when I have so much to do. Anyways, at least I got all of the laundry done, well for the most part anyways. I am to tired to do anything else tonight. Ok well I am going to sign off, I just needed to vent a bit.

New Year, New Me!

Well I admit, I have been hiding from blogging for awhile. I have now decided since it is a new year it is also time to start over. The last year was pretty rough on me and on my family and it is time for me to get out of my rut and have a great 2010!

I have so much going on this year, a wedding to plan, a move to be made, a job change...Just to name a few...and I am excited for all of it!

Anyways, here is to a new year and to starting over!

Just not right...

I dont even know how to explain things right now except they are just not right....
I have been having a horrible time with things lately and I cant seem to get over stuff. I have been very angry lately. Not only with normal stuff but I just cant seem to get over losing the baby. I have really tried to not be jelous of ALL my friends who are pregnant and who have just had babies and I seem to do well with it most of the time but I do not seem to be able to completely get over this. I am glad that I have not have had to many depressed moments but the angry and jelous moments are the ones that are killing me. I feel bad about the way I feel. I think I am going to try and get into some counselling from work. Hopefully that will help me out with this. I do feel better now that I am able to write this all down and get it out.

I have other issues to deal with as well. Andy has been really terrible lately. I swear he thinks that I am his maid. He has not been helpful around the house at all recently. When I have talked with him about he helps for the day and then he goes right back to the same crap. I finally got really mad at him this past weekend and told him how I felt again. Of course he was a bit more helpful, but he makes a huge show of it. He thinks that since I get home earlier than him I should be fine with picking up his messes, doing his dishes, laundry and cooking his food. All he has been doing is coming home, eating, playing on his dang computer and then going to the garage to work out. MOstly he is playing on the computer whish is really annoying since he is hooked on some stupid computer game for a 8 year old. I just said screw it and he is sleeping in the spare room. I have had enough of the talking till I am blue in the face, now I will just let him stay in the spare room till I am not irriatated anymore. Who knows how long that will be though since I didnt speak to him all weekend until late last night and was just barely, and he messed up again this morning. It was really stupid too... I had some cash in my wallet and he took it without asking like he always does, and then he denied it. He was the only one who could have done it so why lie about it?? I would have given him the money anyways if he had just asked but of course he has to be all shady about it. Its stupid and I am sick of his childishness as well.

OK well I feel somewhat better now that I have written everything down. I will talk to you again soon.