Just not right...

I dont even know how to explain things right now except they are just not right....
I have been having a horrible time with things lately and I cant seem to get over stuff. I have been very angry lately. Not only with normal stuff but I just cant seem to get over losing the baby. I have really tried to not be jelous of ALL my friends who are pregnant and who have just had babies and I seem to do well with it most of the time but I do not seem to be able to completely get over this. I am glad that I have not have had to many depressed moments but the angry and jelous moments are the ones that are killing me. I feel bad about the way I feel. I think I am going to try and get into some counselling from work. Hopefully that will help me out with this. I do feel better now that I am able to write this all down and get it out.

I have other issues to deal with as well. Andy has been really terrible lately. I swear he thinks that I am his maid. He has not been helpful around the house at all recently. When I have talked with him about he helps for the day and then he goes right back to the same crap. I finally got really mad at him this past weekend and told him how I felt again. Of course he was a bit more helpful, but he makes a huge show of it. He thinks that since I get home earlier than him I should be fine with picking up his messes, doing his dishes, laundry and cooking his food. All he has been doing is coming home, eating, playing on his dang computer and then going to the garage to work out. MOstly he is playing on the computer whish is really annoying since he is hooked on some stupid computer game for a 8 year old. I just said screw it and he is sleeping in the spare room. I have had enough of the talking till I am blue in the face, now I will just let him stay in the spare room till I am not irriatated anymore. Who knows how long that will be though since I didnt speak to him all weekend until late last night and was just barely, and he messed up again this morning. It was really stupid too... I had some cash in my wallet and he took it without asking like he always does, and then he denied it. He was the only one who could have done it so why lie about it?? I would have given him the money anyways if he had just asked but of course he has to be all shady about it. Its stupid and I am sick of his childishness as well.

OK well I feel somewhat better now that I have written everything down. I will talk to you again soon.